I heard that smiling helps you trick yourself
Into thinking you’re happy
So I’ve been trying it out, walking all over town
But it feels so tacky
I don’t know if I can take another day
Pretending to everyone I’m okay
Just to have another sleepless night
Fantasizing bout setting my house on fire
I’ve tried every pill and
I’ve read every book
I called every friend
And I’m still just as fucked as I ever was
Oh, I’m still just as stuck as I ever was
I’ve cried every tear and
I’ve smiled ear to ear
Confronted my fears
And I’m still just as fucked as I ever was
Oh I’m still just as stuck as I ever was
They say that time heals everything
But I’ve been waiting and waiting
I ache to know what its like to be friends with your mind
Not behind enemy lines
Can take another day?
Pretending to everyone I’m okay?
Just to come home and eat dinner alone
And wonder what they’ll write on my headstone
I’ve tried every pill and
I’ve read every book
I called every friend
And I’m still just as fucked as I ever was
Oh, I’m still just as stuck as I ever was
I’ve cried every tear and
I’ve smiled ear to ear
Confronted my fears
And I’m still just as fucked as I ever was
Oh I’m still just as stuck as I ever was
Spinning my wheels
Trying to heal
Begging with some higher power
To bring back how I used to feel
Look in the mirror
But there’s nobody here
Might as well just be ghost
For all the good I do here
I’ve tried every pill and
I’ve read every book
I called every friend
And I’m still just as fucked as I ever was
Oh, I’m still just as stuck as I ever was
I’ve cried every tear and
I’ve smiled ear to ear
Confronted my fears
And I’m still just as fucked as I ever was
Oh I’m still just as stuck as I ever was
